As I was driving home reflecting over the school year (I’m a teacher) and previous five years teaching in Colorado this quote from Mark Twain came to mind and really resonated with me.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did.”
I am embarking on a faith journey. Not just me, but my husband and I. This is a journey God is leading us on. I have quit my job to pursue other dreams. These are dreams that God has placed on my heart. But not only is it dream based, it is also an act of obedience. I know I am doing what God has shown me to do, and now it is just a matter of trusting Him and believing that He has something amazing for me.
This all began about two years ago. One desire in my heart began to grow and another began to fade. My desire to write is the one that began to grow and my love for teaching is the one that began to fade. I prayed desperately for God to make it clear. I prayed for my love of teaching to reignite. I felt if that happened, then I would know to keep teaching. But that did not happen.
This school year I felt certain that change was coming. But I was scared of that change. Continuing to teach meant security. When it became time to make a decision, God led me to fast. Separately, God also gave Chris a desire to fast. We fasted the same day that I planned to talk with my administrator at the school. The peace I had in my heart all day confirmed my next steps. It was time to bid farewell to teaching and focus on writing.
Knowing that I am in God’s will gives me confidence. Even when I feel scared and uncertain about what I am doing, I know that God only has the best for me and He will clue me in when it is time for me to know. Several open doors have just closed and I am waiting for God to open new doors.
As Chris and I individually, and together, seek God’s will, supporting one another and believing in one another is important. The choices I am making are not made just in and of myself. They are based on what I feel God wants me to do and has planned. A relationship with God is the foundation of our marriage and it’s what keeps us strong and keeps us moving through this crazy, unpredictable life.
Chris is supportive of me and what I am doing because he trusts my relationship with God. Chris’ own time fasting and in prayer has confirmed this next step. God has confirmed this direction, to each of us separately, which enhances the peace we feel. So it is in faith, trust, and hope that we begin a new chapter in our lives. I’m excited to see what God has planned.
“Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” – 1 Corinthians 13:7
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord. ‘They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.’” – Jeremiah 29:11
Beyond The I Do 
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